First.

If you’ve never checked out Lauren Daigle, you need to–right now.

This woman tells it how it is–crying out to God from the raw honesty of her heart. One song in particular, “First,” has spit arrows into my heart since the first time I listened to it while sitting alone in my big girl apartment, listening to the pouring rain splash against the pavement outside and thinking about life, my Bible next to me and Lauren Daigle’s powerful voice enveloping the room.

“Before I bring my need
I will bring my heart
Before I lift my cares
I will lift my arms”

How often do I expect to see all of God’s power at work in my life without offering Him all of me? (Answer: A LOT). I know I shouldn’t, and I try not to, but I often fall into the trap of treating God as my personal assistant (with super powers). I briefly thank Him for His love and mercy, and then launch right into my laundry list of needs and desires. And, of course, He is more than willing to help me, but He desires more than just that type of relationship–He longs for my heart.

“Before I speak a word
Let me hear Your voice”

I also have a habit of rambling (and that’s not just in my conversations with God…) My mouth tends to hit the ground running as soon as I open my prayer journal, and I don’t take any time at all to just stop and let God talk back to me. I know He longs to let me hear His voice, but He also forces me to be patient enough to hear it...and that can be agonizing (patience is hard, people!)

And in the midst of pain
Let me feel Your joy”

When my heart stings from pain, my eyes become waterfalls. I wish I didn’t, but I cry all the time. Yet Lauren Daigle is referring to James 1:2, which boldly commands, “Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds,” going on in verse 3 to give the reason for this joy: “because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.” 

I don’t want to be lacking anything. I want to learn to be joyful in all things so that I can be mature and complete in my faith–praising God for the work He is doing, even if it hurts at the time.

“Ooh, I wanna know You
I wanna find You
In every season
In every moment”

No matter what life brings–good or bad–we should strive to find God in that moment. It can be so very difficult to see Him working when things are painful: when you lose someone you love or fight with a friend or are told you can no longer do something you loved. In these times it can be so easy to question God’s sovereignty and care–yet these are the moments He may choose to use to draw us back to Him! Instead of only seeing the bad, let us strive to discover what God is desiring from us; let us want to know and find Him.

“You are my treasure and my reward
Let nothing ever come before
You are my treasure and my reward
Let nothing ever come before
I seek You”

I am so guilty of not putting God first. I want to, I say I will or that I do, and then I turn around and do the very things I swore I wouldn’t–things I know will hurt Him, myself, and even others in my life. And, unfortunately, there is no formula for putting God first in your life–no a+b=Jesus. Sure, reading His Word and making prayer a habit is beyond beneficial; however, we can’t prescribe ourselves “thirty minutes of Bible reading and forty-five minutes of prayer, daily” and expect instant results. Learning to treasure and put God at the forefront of our lives is a constant journey–a battle against the temptations of this world that we will never finish during our time on this side of Heaven.

I’m guilty of making idols of other things and other people in my life. But I rejoice in the knowledge that, even when I slip and fall over and over again, I cannot forfeit God as my treasure. Friends, the race never ends! God never, ever gives up on us! As long as we keep fighting to make Him our treasure (even if we fail at times), He will keep helping us until He is

“First.”

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